Chips and Salsa

Yeah..that's what I'm eating right now. Healthy? Hell no. Leftovers from Thursday night Chili's take out. If I blogged everything I ate, maybe I'd be more aware of the way I'm poisoning my boday. This salsa is probably alright. I don't taste any sugar, so I don't think there's any of that nasty High Fructose Corn Syrup in there. The chips are corn chips, which I think some consider a whole grain. That's the big thing now...whole grain this and whole grain that. I think my toothpaste is whole grain. But they are very very thin and very very fried. Chili's used to put their chips in a paper bag. Five minutes after being transported to their new home, the corn chips would begin to weep all the excess fat from their little corn chip eyes...fondly remembering how warm and safe they felt after being born from their hot oil bath and laying under a heat lamp. At that stage in their short lives, they never imagined being dipped in salsa, or taking a warm bath in a melted cheese dip only to enter the mouth of a human where they would be masticated (that's not a perverse act...it's the first stage of digestion) rolled around on the tongue only to enter the remainder of the digestive tract which only gets nastier the further gravity and peristalsis moves the blob that once was a corn chip through the human body. I've been eating really poorly lately.

I've come to two conclusions about why. One is mechanical the other is mental.

Mechanically, my sink has been broken for maybe 3 months now. When I run water through the sink, it does not go through the pipes. All the pipe connections have come loose, so waste water runs under my sink and onto my kitchen floor. I haven't had it fixed and I do not have the patience to fix it myself. This is where the mental starts to play...

I have this notion that the world has these cleanliness standards, and since I do not enjoy housekeeping, I feel my place does not meet those standards, so I won't let anybody through my front door. I've had offers to clean my house....I don't take people up on them. Yeah...I'm mental like that. Perhaps once I break through some of my other issues I talk to my therapist about, I'll bring that up to see what I can do about it.

So...my sink is broken, so I can't clean up the kitchen or pots and pans without taking them upstairs to the bathtub to wash. I've done that before and it's a pain in the ass. The bathtub can't be the cleanest place to do dishes...oh yeah...my dishwasher has been broken for a few years too...not fixed....you know why.

So the chips and salsa are tasty...not healthy. I had chinese for lunch...tasty..not healthy. And Lean Pocket for breakfast....healthy...not tasty. Yesterday...chicken tacos for dinner...steak and baked potato for lunch....probably a lean pocket again for breakfast. Shame on me..no wonder I've put on so much weight. I used to be around a buck fifty. I've gained about 40 cents. That's bad. Maybe awareness is the first step of changing my life....I sorta doubt it.

Ok this has been a bunch of fluff...I just had to write something to get back into blogging. Be good....